Now it is Christmas again, weather had changed as well as the new plans for the coming year, I am hopeful that change will open new opportunity for the better. Responses from my job applications were very slow perhaps it was not the right job for me yet. May be I need to try to look harder for other possibility or just wait until the beginning of the New Year. Every day is like a scavenger hunt until I finally find the perfect place for me to thrive where all my energy and skills are invested. Whatever it is, only I should say I trust.
Arriving back in the US last summer was not the same because I already had this in mind of leaving my job for good. Unhappy as I was to make such a major decision at this point considering the economic condition of the country but on the other hand, happy because I felt that this is the time to leave. Change is good and one has to grow with it including the many challenges it will bring. I left my job to venture into the unknown. Leaving seems to be easy as I thought but giving up something that has been part of you, was challenging in some way. So I left Texas towards the end of September, to drive back to California. Coming back was a mixture of excitement and uncertainty. It felt like coming home because California is definitely home for me for many years. It is not really a strange place to begin with. Excitement because I will be seeing old friends anew and reconnect with the innumerable places that is familiar and beautiful that had been missed for over a year; uncertainty because I really don't know what lies ahead for me. Not knowing for certain shook my nerves a bit but one thing I repeatedly utter is to trust God. Much better if I found something; but if not, time will tell to thrive in the waiting that will soon to happen. So be it like Amen to all that is happening. I embrace it with humble heart with a big hope that something good will come.
The year 2013 can be challenging with uncertainty of the future. I may continue doing the part time job until I finally find a full time and regular one. I applied for the Mental Health Fellowship Program in California in the second quarter of the year, so I’m praying that they will accept my applications. If accepted, I may postpone my planned trip to the Philippines later in the year. I have few trips in mind but I will reserve that in my next newsletter to you. You may have wanted to go as well if you have known it. Something to look forward to and explore new places to add in to my bucket list is definitely exciting.