And then I said, "O God I still want to have my own family and have my own children. It would be too late if I postpone it." And He led me to the story of Sarah. Sarah was 90 when she gave birth to Isaac.
And I am starting to get scared. “Lord is it really you speaking?" Maybe I am just imagining things or is it just coincidence. And then He led me again to the story of the disciples wherein they were so scared because they saw Him and they thought He was a ghost. Do not fear. It is I. Okay. You are really calling me.
|Ger and her mom during the renewal of commitment|
I am holding on to those faithfulness of God, his reply to me and also to His continuous assistance and support and guidance as we go to mission. Hopefully, and I know it is the same God, the same faithful God who will be with us in the next three years.
My initial response was “Actually I do not want to go back.” But then God is so faithful that I heard God speaks in my heart “Jayjay, are you sure you do not really want to go back.” And it made me reflect again and it brought me to the many wonderful and enriching experiences I had there in Britain, with the people I had met there, the many friendships and relationships that has helped me deepen my relationship with the Lord. So I guess that’s what pushed me through to go back and ride the plane again. But I am really thankful to God for all his blessings because at first when I left the Philippines my traditional thinking of being a missionary is go to Britain and teach about God. But when I reached Britain, God was already there before me. And I learned so many things even in the face of my Muslim brothers and sisters. I remember one instance when a Muslim woman said “Jayjay, you know what? The bible is the best book that you can read.” And I was struck with that coming from a Muslim woman. There are many experiences there especially the hardships of people especially coming from different countries especially those asylum seekers who are seeking a good life but when they reach Britain they feel so lonely because they left their families back home and it is not easy for them to go back to where they came from. And so it touches me because it is an invitation for me to be a family, to be a sister, to them. I would like to take this opportunity to thank the Columban family for their prayers and support. I am inspired to see former lay missionaries who are here, and Columban sisters, my friends. It gives me the strength, the courage that this is really God’s mission and your all there through your prayers and support. I would like also to thank my family back home my parents, my brother and sister. I know they are also part of this mission for sending me and the parish people. I don’t want to cry because I have my make-up on. Thank you and please continue praying for us.
|Jayjay (Right, Front row) with other Columban Missionaries in Britain|